[presently in a sad/depressed/angry mood, so please pardon the angst]
people told me that when a big event comes, anxiety & nervous anticipation will take over ur mentality; eventually overpowering ur sense of direction & decision. did i believe them? obviously not! man, i kept my true feelings from my friends, most especially my cotillion members & where did it all lead to?....a nervous breakdown... i bottled up all my emotions & dude, i'm heck a cryin right now. gosh, u might say i'm too sensitive or whatevers but naw...
>>whenever someone can't attend the practice because they were having problems (i.e. appointments, emergency, or a stupid "i didn't feel like it" or "i wasn't in the mood").....i understood & handled it
>>whenever someone needed a ride to and fro....i understood & handled it
>>whenever anyone was havin any trouble, be it the dress, their partner, the choreographer, the date & time of practice....i understood & handled it
>>whenever anyone felt hungry or thirsty....i understood & handled it
>>for any reason, i was there & took care of it (of course with the greatest help from my mom).
[again, i repeat that i'm in a bad mood] but u've got to realize that i'm just ONE person. i have feelings too! i feel as tho some of u overlook how i feel & only care about ur own comfort zone. man, i've been so accommodating to all of you. it's not that easy to deal with ur different personalities, while, at the same time, making sure that u're having the best possible environment. we did whatever we could to fit ur busy schedule, altho we have our own. the regular phone calls/e-mails/instant messages did not come easy. we had to take the time to inform u. and for what? so that u wouldn't show up (not even a phone call to let us know). it's absolutely ridiculous! i gave all of u a chance to detach urselves from this commitment before it was too late. u knew that with this commitment comes responsibility & willingness. none of u left (& for that i am grateful). but, sadly, i did not see the fervor from some of u. if it were ur debut/quince, i would surely attend every single one & try not to be late. & if worse comes to worse, u'd receive a phone call. if ever i misbehave & ur parents corrected me, i wouldn't disrespect cuz i know how stressful it is & that answering back would not be a part of the solution.
look, i'm not angry. i'm just HURT. hurt because those whom i asked to be in my cotillion (those who i consider my closest friends) seem to not want the outcome of this debut to be a success. all i'm askin is seriousness these last practice. we have not accomplished that yet. i do, however, BEG (i am no longer asking cuz it didn't do any good...i'm resorting to groveling) all of u to make the best out of our last practice. please please please. we only have 2 more days, then u don't have to see my ugly face nor hear my voice ever again.
I'm going to stop procrastinating ... once I get around to it.
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[presently in a sad/depressed/angry mood, so please pardon the angst]
people told me that when a big event comes, anxiety & nervous anticipation will take over ur mentality; eventually overpowering ur sense of direction & decision. did i believe them? obviously not! man, i kept my true feelings from my friends, most especially my cotillion members & where did it all lead to?....a nervous breakdown... i bottled up all my emotions & dude, i'm heck a cryin right now. gosh, u might say i'm too sensitive or whatevers but naw...
>>whenever someone can't attend the practice because they were having problems (i.e. appointments, emergency, or a stupid "i didn't feel like it" or "i wasn't in the mood").....i understood & handled it
>>whenever someone needed a ride to and fro....i understood & handled it
>>whenever anyone was havin any trouble, be it the dress, their partner, the choreographer, the date & time of practice....i understood & handled it
>>whenever anyone felt hungry or thirsty....i understood & handled it
>>for any reason, i was there & took care of it (of course with the greatest help from my mom).
[again, i repeat that i'm in a bad mood] but u've got to realize that i'm just ONE person. i have feelings too! i feel as tho some of u overlook how i feel & only care about ur own comfort zone. man, i've been so accommodating to all of you. it's not that easy to deal with ur different personalities, while, at the same time, making sure that u're having the best possible environment. we did whatever we could to fit ur busy schedule, altho we have our own. the regular phone calls/e-mails/instant messages did not come easy. we had to take the time to inform u. and for what? so that u wouldn't show up (not even a phone call to let us know). it's absolutely ridiculous! i gave all of u a chance to detach urselves from this commitment before it was too late. u knew that with this commitment comes responsibility & willingness. none of u left (& for that i am grateful). but, sadly, i did not see the fervor from some of u. if it were ur debut/quince, i would surely attend every single one & try not to be late. & if worse comes to worse, u'd receive a phone call. if ever i misbehave & ur parents corrected me, i wouldn't disrespect cuz i know how stressful it is & that answering back would not be a part of the solution.
look, i'm not angry. i'm just HURT. hurt because those whom i asked to be in my cotillion (those who i consider my closest friends) seem to not want the outcome of this debut to be a success. all i'm askin is seriousness these last practice. we have not accomplished that yet. i do, however, BEG (i am no longer asking cuz it didn't do any good...i'm resorting to groveling) all of u to make the best out of our last practice. please please please. we only have 2 more days, then u don't have to see my ugly face nor hear my voice ever again.